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 Luo family's situation is chaotic. Under the strange influence of his family, Luo Gaoshan's personality isn't exactly upright. It's not that his upbringing was dark; on the contrary, his parents were open-minded and wealthy, and they didn't expect him to achieve anything great.

Logically, he should have become a wealthy second-generation heir skilled in all aspects of life, his life trajectory predetermined: receiving elite education, studying abroad, and finally returning to inherit the family business.

But Luo Gaoshan went astray.

Perhaps the Luo family's inherent madness, passed down through genes, took a completely drastic turn in Luo Gaoshan's generation.

From a young age, Luo Gaoshan loved thrills, whether people or events; he enjoyed the suffocating feeling of impending death. He didn't study properly abroad, instead becoming a mercenary, nearly dying before being urgently recalled by his family.

Later, his parents, somewhat frightened by Luo Gaoshan, begged Luo Guanhan, now retired and delegating power, to look after him. Luo Guanhan, after years of ups and downs, had some real skills, enough to earn Luo Gaoshan's respect, so Luo Gaoshan didn't do anything too risky.

But he couldn't stay idle, and one time, he secretly took on a mission, lying in wait in a dilapidated apartment building.

No, it should be called a "handshake building"—the buildings were so narrow they were practically touching, the people were a mixed bunch, and the soundproofing was terrible. Even a neighbor breaking a bowl would be broadcast live, not to mention the constant buzzing of the air conditioner units mounted on the exterior walls.

This kind of environment would be difficult for even a pampered middle-class child, let alone someone like Luo Gaoshan.

But Luo Gaoshan didn't seem to care at all.

He walked along the broken streets every day, unconcerned about his expensive shoes getting muddy, but as he went upstairs, he saw a person radiating light standing in the narrow stairwell, barely wide enough for one person to pass at a time.

It was a boy, so youthful-looking that calling him a man felt unsettling. In the sweltering heat, he wore a short-sleeved t-shirt and thigh-high hot pants, revealing his long, straight legs—undoubtedly alluring. Humans have an almost obsessive yearning for beauty. The boy leaned casually against the cracked wall, his legs crossed and pressed together, forming a mysterious area, his toes idly drawing circles on the ground.

He was on the phone, speaking in a coquettish voice, mumbling incoherently. Luo Gaoshan couldn't understand what he was saying, but his posture clearly indicated he was flirting with his boyfriend.

Luo Gaoshan instinctively had this thought:

the man dating this boy must be a tall, imposing man,

like him.

The hallway was too narrow. To put it bluntly, Luo Gaoshan was as strong as a bear, currently wearing a black windbreaker, a baseball cap pulled low to his eyebrows, and a mask, revealing only his menacing, triangular white eyes. He looked like a murderer from a horror movie.

The boy, whose body was obscured by the shadow while on the phone, subconsciously took a moment to glance at Luo Gaoshan, only to be startled by the man's eyes.

The boy covered his phone, somewhat bewildered, squeezing into the corner to make room for Luo Gaoshan, but his eyes held a hint of almost reproachful petulance he himself didn't realize.

It was as if he was wondering how someone as annoying as Luo Gaoshan could exist—so tall, so strong, and so fierce, constantly staring at him coldly, making him both afraid and somewhat annoyed.

Luo Gaoshan didn't move, and the boy didn't dare urge him. Only the male voice from the still-connected phone kept asking, "Baby? Why isn't baby talking?"

Only then did Luo Gaoshan move. He squeezed past the boy, and even though he was careful, his large body still brushed against the boy's soft flesh.

It was nothing.

Luo Gaoshan thought he didn't care, but his excellent hearing allowed him to hear the boy complaining to his boyfriend in a low voice when he reached the top of the stairs, "I met a bad person, so annoying."

The last person who dared to speak ill of Luo Gaoshan behind his back had long been forced out of A City. But strangely, Luo Gaoshan didn't feel angry. Instead, he thought…

how could he be so small, so pale?

Even when he was cursing, his voice was so soft. Was he really cursing?

Wasn't he… rewarding someone?

A tingling sensation spread from Luo Gaoshan's heart to his fingertips.

Luo Gaoshan couldn't sleep that night. He didn't know why. No matter how much of a playboy he was, he'd never messed around with relationships. He had neither the inclination nor the impulse; dating someone was less appealing than bungee jumping. But now…

the virgin Luo Gaoshan, completely clueless about love, relationships, and romance, suddenly had an epiphany.

He thought, men can be together after all.

The little boy he met today was perfect.

Perfect for him.

Luo Gaoshan had a very low moral compass; he didn't think there was anything wrong with his thinking. Even if the little boy seemed to have a boyfriend, so what?

But Luo Gaoshan didn't force himself on him, nor did he pursue him passionately.

Although he craved excitement, he was essentially a reserved man.

He was afraid of scaring the boy.

Over the next few days, Luo Gaoshan quickly completed the commission, but he didn't leave the dilapidated apartment building. Instead, he secretly followed the little boy every day when he went out.

—Luo Gaoshan rented a new place, specifically choosing one next to the boy.

He had already researched the boy's background; it wasn't difficult for him.

The boy's name was Jiang Nian, and he had come to City A alone to make a living.

However, Jiang Nian almost never left his house, seemingly always tinkering with something in his room. Only at night could one hear Jiang Nian's indistinct voice, even more delicate than the other day.

Occasionally, a few excited cries could be heard, all saying "Thank you, husband."

Was she chatting with her boyfriend every day?

Luo Gaoshan leaned against the wall, eavesdropping. The wall was quite thick, and Jiang Nian's voice was too soft, making it difficult for Luo Gaoshan to hear clearly.

Luo Gaoshan didn't think he was a pervert.

He even thought he was a normal person pursuing Jiang Nian.

It wasn't until one day, when Jiang Nian went downstairs to throw out the trash, that Luo Gaoshan realized what kind of work Jiang Nian did.

The bag, carelessly tossed into the trash can by its owner, was stained with the foul-smelling liquid from the surrounding garbage, but Luo Gaoshan took it out without hesitation. He tore open the black bag, revealing several somewhat tattered pieces of clothing. They

were all dresses.

The dresses were of extremely poor quality; they had torn after only a few wears, with loose threads flying everywhere.

Whether it was Luo Gaoshan's imagination or not, the moment his fingers touched the clothes, he seemed to still feel the lingering warmth of Jiang Nian on them.

This caused a bead of sweat to appear on Luo Gaoshan's broad forehead.

He tried hard to suppress his emotions.

He couldn't. He took the clothes back to the room, leaned against the wall as if to get closer to Jiang Nian, wrapped himself in the clothes, and then let out a low, venting sound.

This made Luo Gaoshan even more thirsty for Jiang Nian. He wanted to possess her, to make her snow-white face unable to even cry, only able to clutch her gradually swelling belly, helplessly begging him for mercy in her soft, sweet voice.

His wife, his little wife,

was actually engaged in shameful activities. Every day, she dressed in cheap women's clothing, pretending to be a woman online, flirting with men and selling her charm to other women.

This was what Luo Gaoshan discovered.

Later, Jiang Nian earned money and moved to a better neighborhood, and Luo Gaoshan naturally followed. During this time, he forgot about seeking thrills, or perhaps, for him, following Jiang Nian was something that made his scalp tingle with excitement.

He had never felt such pleasure before.

But he dared not let Jiang Nian know of his existence.

Luo Gaoshan was too innocent; he couldn't even face Jiang Nian in person. He could only watch his wife through the screen, becoming the top spender on virtual gifts, making Jiang Nian sweetly call him by his online name and call him husband.

The matter could have ended there. Luo Gaoshan was indeed a pervert, but still a pervert with traceable patterns.

Until Luo Gaoshan went to the bar with Jiang Nian.

Only then did he realize that the innocent and adorable Jiang Nian he thought was an outright promiscuous liar. She had dated many boyfriends, deceiving not only her online fans but also him.

Luo Gaoshan waited downstairs. The night was dark, the wind cutting like knives across his face. His eyes were dry, bloodshot, like a walking corpse.

Only when dawn broke did Luo Gaoshan stretch his stiff body, which hadn't moved in a long time, and follow Jiang Nian home.

From that moment on, Luo Gaoshan became twisted.

He didn't want to be abandoned by Jiang Nian, didn't want to be a short-term boyfriend; he wanted to be Jiang Nian's one and only.

For this, he could suppress his burgeoning desires, hoping to earn Jiang Nian's respect.

His distorted thinking changed even more after rescuing Jiang Nian. Luo Gaoshan had too many things to deal with, and he couldn't control everything alone. Perhaps... he could protect Jiang Nian together with his uncle.

Watching the saline solution flow into the skin of Jiang Nian's hand through the drip, and seeing the bluish-purple veins that had surfaced, he made this decision in his heart.

Seeing that Luo Gaoshan was just looking at him without saying a word, Jiang Nian quickly fell asleep again. His time with Xue Taihe had exhausted him, and he needed several days to recover before he became lively and active again.

Luo Gaoshan came to see him every day, but Xue Rongfeng seemed to be held back by something and only arrived a few days later.

He was clearly dressed up carefully, neat and meticulous. He sat by the bed peeling an apple for Jiang Nian. It was obvious that Xue Rongfeng rarely did this kind of thing; the apple peel was crooked and looked terrible.

But Xue Rongfeng was very serious, even carving it into the shape of a little rabbit, as if he were doing something worth millions.

He personally fed it to Jiang Nian, who swallowed it without even looking at the presentation.

Xue Rongfeng chuckled softly, his emotions seemingly always so stable.

Of course, Xue Rongfeng wasn't as calm as he appeared. He knew his younger brother would seek out Jiang Nian after his release, but he hadn't expected it to happen so quickly, or so swiftly.

Xue Rongfeng knew his brother well; Xue Taihe was a very traditional man.

But he hadn't expected Jiang Nian to break through that mold.

Jiang Nian was like a magic potion, triggering a unique chemical reaction.

Wasn't he always hung up on Jiang Nian? Even when she gave him the cold shoulder, ignored his messages, and he couldn't coax her no matter what, he still shamelessly begged her to look at him.

Yet even so, Jiang Nian didn't remember his kindness.

It was as if she didn't care about his money or power at all, holed up in her own little world, blind to everyone else.

Thinking of this, Xue Rongfeng smiled bitterly, subtly, so that Jiang Nian wouldn't notice.

Xue Rongfeng had many company and family affairs to handle. Unlike the carefree rich second-generation like Luo Gaoshan, he was truly in charge. After taking care of everything for Jiang Nian, he took a picture of her intently watching a game, holding a game console. Jiang Nian looked stunningly beautiful, her green eyes sparkling like perfectly cut gemstones. She

also resembled a kitten captivated by a plush toy.

Xue Rongfeng set this photo as his screensaver and greeted Jiang Nian. Jiang Nian glanced away from the screen for a moment, then smiled at Xue Rongfeng as he left. It

was sweet and sweet .

Xue Rongfeng, who had secretly worried that Jiang Nian might be traumatized by this incident, breathed a sigh of relief.

On the day he rescued Jiang Nian, Xue Rongfeng had arranged for a psychologist to talk to her. Even though the results were positive, Xue Rongfeng was still worried.

He was terrified. For the first time, Xue Rongfeng felt fear. He had been so domineering towards Jiang Nian then, yet now he feared she might be experiencing any discomfort.

Rarely, he showed a conscience.

...

Jiang Nian returned home. After recovering, he insisted on leaving despite Xue Rongfeng's attempts to persuade him to stay. Luo Gaoshan remained silent, but Jiang Nian didn't notice their emotions; after all, the mission was more important.

Jiang Nian took the mission so seriously, partly due to his personality—he found it interesting—and partly because he was curious about his past memories.

Although his basic survival instincts remained, the loss of his memories still caused some unease. This unease fueled Jiang Nian's willingness to take on the mission more proactively.

The system had also told him that his memories would be restored upon completion of the mission.

He waited for that day.

Jiang Nian carefully selected his clothes, finally choosing a gorgeous pink princess dress and a silver rhinestone crown.

This time, he didn't wear lipstick, revealing his natural bright red lips.

After doing this, Jiang Nian took out the phone Xue Rongfeng had brought back for him, which he had left with Xue Taihe. He had checked the messages on the phone over the past few days but hadn't replied. However, he deleted the messages from that day on social media, an action that stirred up some discussion on the forum.

He was currently browsing that forum.

Ever since he discovered it, Jiang Nian had used it as a source of information, observing his fans' activities and moods to plan his missions. After

reviewing the forum, he had a clear idea of ​​what to do. Jiang Nian tidied his hair, ensuring he looked presentable, and then started his long-awaited live stream.

The chat was quickly flooded with comments.

"Waaaaaah, I miss you so much, my wife."

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, whether I'm right or wrong, I'm wrong. Don't be sad, stay and stream."

"Wife?! The number one fan actually let you stream?!"

"As long as my wife is willing to stream, life without her is hopeless."

"Did the number one fan give you a hard time?"

"Did you break up?"

"Wife, you can date as many boyfriends as you want, I support you."

"Don't fall in love with a jerk, wife, waaaaah."

The comments scrolled by so quickly that Jiang Nian was dizzy.

Most of the comments were inquiries and compliments, and even the occasional malicious comments were quickly refuted by fans, who were afraid of upsetting the small streamer.

But today, Jiang Nian's livestream wasn't for anything else; it was to reveal something so that his fans would "suddenly realize" later.

Jiang Nian felt it was about time to expose his true colors. His innocent persona had been ruined by Xue Taihe, and maintaining it any longer would be ridiculous. Besides, once the fans got used to it, there would be no point in revealing it.

Jiang Nian wasn't leaving himself any way out.

He didn't know if it was because he had no memory that he acted without restraint,

or if it was just his true nature.

Jiang Nian was somewhat wicked. There were very few people in this world who could have long-term contact with him. Even Luo Gaoshan could only see a partial picture, so no one could see the personality hidden beneath Jiang Nian's well-behaved exterior.

The dress Jiang Nian wore accentuated his rosy cheeks, red lips, and white teeth. His expression lacked its usual coquettishness; instead, it was faint, revealing an unspeakable melancholy.

He remained silent, staring intently at the comments.

This familiar scene made Jiang Nian's fans instinctively tense up, fearing that he would silently burst into tears at any moment.

But Jiang Nian didn't. After a long while, he smiled, but it didn't seem genuine; it was more like a forced smile.

The comments section hesitated suspiciously, even the words "wife" sounding a little hesitant.

"Stop laughing. If you don't want to laugh, then don't. It's okay, Nian Nian, you still have us."

"No way, did the number one fan really let you down?"

"My poor baby."

"Wife, I'm a little scared seeing you like this. I swear I haven't done anything to betray you!"

"Men, if one doesn't have the other, they'll just find another~"

"Am I the only one who noticed that my wife is still stunningly beautiful today?"

At this moment, Jiang Nian spoke up, unhurriedly, saying, "I'll still chat with you all today, and I'll also share my thoughts."

After speaking, Jiang Nian's expression became somewhat dazed, his fingers unconsciously twirling strands of hair, the black hair wrapped around his snow-white fingertips, creating a stunning contrast. But the fans didn't have time to notice this. They looked at the beautiful streamer's eyes, which seemed to be looking somewhere, their hearts pounding, hoping that what the streamer was about to say wouldn't be heartbreaking.

But, in the end, it was going to break, and shatter completely.

After regaining his senses, Jiang Nian lowered his finger and said, "I do have some connection with the number one on the leaderboard, but we parted amicably, and I'm not sad because of him."

The chat was full of people comforting him, showering him with gifts, but Jiang Nian stopped them, saying, "Don't send me any more gifts, I don't need them."

But the chat only intensified the barrage of comments. Jiang Nian's fanbase was clearly growing, and from the moment the stream started, it had flooded the homepage. New viewers were so stunned by Jiang Nian's face that they didn't even hear what he was saying.

Seeing that the chat wasn't listening to him, Jiang Nian sighed. A beautiful man is beautiful no matter what he does, even his sigh has an ambiguous beauty. He said, "I'm streaming today... because I have some things to tell you all. I'm a little tired."

"Streaming feels meaningless to me. I can't find any reason to continue."

"I'm not the streamer you all initially liked. I'm actually a bad person. You'll be devastated if you see my true face. I've been lying to you all. I don't like you. Everything I did was just to amuse you."

He paused here, not looking at the chat, and continued, "I don't lack love. I only said that last time to appease you."

"What does your love mean to me? Isn't it ridiculous that you actually believed it?" It was

almost a self-exposure statement. "I originally wanted to continue pretending, but I'm bored, and I've made enough money. I'm not going to continue playing this game with you."

"That's it, goodbye everyone."

...

Flood Area:

Hot Posts:

[Want to Cry] Not for myself, but for nn. HOT~

[Breakdown] I really feel like everyone did something wrong. I've never been so emotional online before, but this is the first time I've felt this sorry for a streamer. HOT~

[Going Crazy] I still can't accept this outcome. HOT~

[Come in and Cry] nn, you're not a bad person! HOT~

OP: I feel like my tears are worthless. nn deleted all his posts on social media. He's truly disappointed with the online world. Every word he said in the live stream broke me down. I'm not good with words, I can't express the feeling, but I felt like he was forcing himself to act cool, pretending to be a winner.

I can't understand why things developed to this point. It wasn't nn's fault at all.

1L: I can't breathe. The more aggressively he attacks his fans, the more it highlights his painful and empty heart. Someone save him!!

8L: I really feel like he's pleading with us for help, saying he's just playing with fans, but then he says he's a bad person. NN, please stop talking, I want to cry, I want to tell him he's a good kid, a good baby.

27L: NN, can you see our comments? Let's send him a private message. I want to tell him that while he thinks livestreaming is meaningless, there are many interesting things in the world. Don't let temporary pain negate everything.

59L: I just came to see some borderline perverted people, why are you torturing me like this?!

130L: This is insane, really insane. Who's happy about this whole thing? The haters? NN? The top fan? Or the fans, or just bystanders?

291L: I saw the haters crying their eyes out, saying they didn't mean to make NN sad, they just wanted to be with NN.

What's the point of saying all this now?

525L: He says he doesn't lack love, but everything he does is a result of that lack of love.

819l: If you really don't like fans, don't care about fans, and just want to amuse them, why did you still dress up so carefully before leaving the internet? Wasn't it all to leave a good impression on your fans? nn, stop deceiving yourself!

1678l: nn, nn, we know you're fragile. We don't blame you, and we don't feel anything. It's nothing. Come back and keep making money off us.

2370l: nn is really stupid. The internet updates so quickly. Even if something hurts him, it will be forgotten in less than a month. Is it really worth it for him to leave the internet like this? Will everyone forget him? Didn't he want our love? What will he do when we forget him?

3806l: His statement that he wasn't the kind of streamer fans liked at first really bothers me. Does nn even understand what a "borderline streamer" is? What kind of innocent "borderline streamer" is that? People don't like him because he's innocent; they follow him because of him as a person, because he's different. Why care so much about what others think, and develop such severe self-loathing because of it?

5411l: I feel that the previous incident really hit him hard. Does he really believe that he is a good person who will be loved? But there are no conditions for being loved. Even if he is a bad guy and a fickle person, everyone will still love him.

6931l: nn's words are really contradictory and illogical. What was he thinking when he said these things? Was he denying himself while also denying others? Just thinking about it is so heartbreaking.

7250l: Why would a truly bad person tell everyone not to spend money before leaving the internet?

9101l: I feel like he was really saying goodbye to us, but he was also really trying to keep us here, but he doesn't know it, he knows nothing.

9999l: I really can't take it anymore, I'm about to break down. Did anyone see the posts from the haters? nn refunded everyone who asked him for a refund before leaving the internet. nn, if this is considered a bad person, what are we supposed to do?!

[Going crazy.] I accidentally dug up nn's family background. HOT~

OP: I didn't do it on purpose, and I didn't specifically dig into it. I just accidentally found someone who looks a lot like nn in the background of one of my photos documenting my life today. [Picture: A pretty person wiping sweat while carrying a beer crate.jpg]

The person in the picture looks exactly like nn, and his eyes are green too, which is nn's characteristic. I think everyone knows that. To prevent me from making a mistake, I went to this barbecue restaurant to ask the owner.

The result made me cry. I showed the owner nn's picture, and he said it was him. The owner said nn was very handsome and he remembered him well. Many customers came specifically for him.

Most importantly, the owner told me that nn has no parents in this world and came here alone to earn money to support himself. He lives in a well-known urban village in City A.

When he first started streaming and smiled so brightly, did he know that this would turn out like this?

1L: It's unbearable. This background combined with nn's comments in the live stream makes it hard for me not to go crazy.

7L: No, OP, how come you only noticed now? Where are those people who were plotting against nn for money? Speak up!

70l: If you told me nn was actually a rich kid who came to stream and mess with us, I could laugh it off. But now you're telling me he's actually a pitiful little thing, I really...

191l: I'm devastated...

307l: He worked so hard, exploring all of this on his own, but then he started doubting himself, afraid of being abandoned by his fans, so he abandoned them prematurely. Does that make him feel safe?

821l: These things are unbearable for any normal person, let alone someone like nn. Nobody told him what love is, nobody taught him how to love.

1697l: Where are those rich guys from before? I'm begging you, go comfort nn offline. He really deserves to be loved, he really does!

2107l: No wonder he kept saying he was lonely, no wonder he was so starved for love. nn, love yourself just once.

If you don't know how to love, we will.

3011l: I miss him so much. Is he alone in his rented room, hugging his arms, curled up and crying?

5720l: I want to hug him.

7135l: He had no parents, no friends, so he gambled everything on the love of his fans, but he lost, so he couldn't accept it and quit the internet. How can I accept this?

8023l: nn…

Don't cry for us.

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